– About stereotyped thinking within the looner scene and where I find myself in it –
You can find stereotyped thinking within almost every area of life. Often this might influence our way of thinking and sadly also our behavior without even noticing it. There are smart labels for almost everything which can cause stereotyped thinking. In principle I see no problem with this issue, because you can see immediately who got the same interests, hobbies, preferences etc. By this we feel connected, related, maybe confirmed and we can exchange with each other and so on.
But sadly it happens that there are often conflicts and hostilities between the different groups influenced by intolerance, fears, foolishness and other factors. This is bad and in much cases simply unnecessarily, but all in all it´s not really dramatic. Because conflicts can be dissolved provided that there is the will for self-reflexion. But from my point of view, it´s most problematic if such labels cause that your own horizon remains small and expectations on how to behave are created.
I ask myself where one category ends and another one begins, where is the line to be drawn? When am I able to call myself a looner, a balloon enthusiast or „just“ a person who likes balloons and do I have the right to judge one or another group? Who makes such rules and guidelines and is this necessary at all? I say NO! Furthermore, I see such categories just as a help of orientation to find themselves.
Life isn´t just black and white, it´s colorful, just like the world of balloons. Of course also in this world, several categories came up over time and that´s okay. For example, if you call yourself a Looner you also start immediately to think about what kind of Looner you are, a Popper, NonPopper or SemiPopper? Honestly, I have to admit that I find it kind of difficult to assign myself to one group and is this even necessary at all?
Since a few years, I call myself a Looner, because I get sexually aroused by the interaction with balloons or they increase my desire. I use them as a sex toy, include them into my lovemaking and I don´t want to give it up in the future. But this doesn´t mean it has to be like this every time I have sex.
I´m quite jumpy and afraid of the pop, so it has to be obvious that I have to be a NonPopper. Then again I´ve always asked myself, what the special charms are while popping balloons. Of course, I´ve had different assumptions and I already made up my mind about this topic. But is it really the right way to form an opinion just based on assumptions?
I thought I have to suck it and see. That´s why my husband Jan and I made a self-experiment to get to the bottom of this. I just thought, that whatever will happen, it would enrich me with a new experience, which might help to get to know me and my desires better and of course the „other site“. In addition, we have a lot of balloons, which have accumulated over the years and now their best days are over. But I thought it would be boring and a complete waste to just throw them away, so we used them to make new experiences.
Now imagine a room, which is almost completely filled with balloons, just the sight of this caused an incredible feeling!
I admit I was a little bit shy at first and started to pop a few balloons carefully with my hands and every time I got scared by the popping noise. At this time it didn´t feel nice and I was also a little bit worried that the neighbors might call the police because of the loud noise. But then I thought of the amusing reaction this bizarre and funny situation might cause, so the fear went away immediately. More and more I lost my inhibitions and so did Jan, who also started to enjoy this situation. To watch me interact with the balloons, crossing their limits and also doing this by himself made both of us really feel comfortable.
The tension, the intense pressure, the power game and the bursting let my desire increase enormously. Then it felt like a switch got thrown. I fell into something like a popping ecstasy. I really never expected this to happen and it surprised me a lot.Incredibly thrilling, exciting and satisfying at the same time and not just in a physical sense. Rather it satisfied me that I broadened my mind and I had the courage to do something, which frightened me before.
But how do I have to go on now? Am I a Popper or a SemiPopper and do I really have to make a decision? Sorry, I don´t want to decide and to say I´m on one or the other site and maybe to restrict my thoughts and behavior by doing so. I just want to do what I want to in that very special moment.
Sadly I´ve noticed way to much discussions, conflicts and hostilities between several groups for example between Poppers and NonPoppers. Often one group tries to convince the other what´s better or if it´s okay to make one´s preferences public or not and so on. So they run in circles over and over again and don´t achieve nothing else than anger, waisted energy and time, which better should have been used for one´s own satisfaction of needs (for example with balloons). Ultimately everyone has the right to make his own decision, right?
So my request to you:
Please throw a glance on yourself more than on the judgment of others. Be honest with yourself, be proud of who you are and love yourself. Don´t try to convince others that your views are the better ones or expect that others conform to you. Rather be happy of the differences and appreciate them, even though they might uncertain you. Try to see the differences as an enrichment, which can make your own life more colorful, if you want it to. Maybe you´ll get to know yourself, your wishes, your desires and dislikes etc. a little bit better and discover new things.
We don’t regret the things that we’ve done but the things that we haven’t. So free yourself and live your life however you want to and enjoy it to the fullest irrespective of any expectations, categories, and boxes.
For more openness – tolerance – sexual freedom & a respectful treatment!